I am fresh back home from an Awesome Sauce trip to Mexico. My college friends have tied the knot in a breathtaking beach front wedding. It was absolutely beautiful. Along with all the beauty of the resort was the company. This was the first time in YEARS that most of my college friends have gotten together. And of course, we gelled back together as though no time had passed, as if nothing at all had changed…. therein lies my problem.
“This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!” – 2 Corinthians 5:17
I kinda got right into having drinks with everyone and having not so civil (no pun intended) conversations. I struggled with that because since I’ve been a follower of Christ I have not gotten drunk or even tipsy. When I realized that I was actually drunk, I felt instant guilt and condemnation. Now, clearly that ain’t right. “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…” – Romans 8:1
I decided to leave the group and go sleep it off. When I awoke still feeling horrible for getting drunk, I repented. But you know, I experienced something that got me thinking, Is this how some people feel about coming to God? I asked this because, as a daughter of the most high, I’ve had the amazing opportunity of knowing him personally. Knowing that no matter what I say or do, he will never leave me or forsake me and that nothing could ever separate me from his love. And yet, I had to drag myself to repent because I felt such shame! I was ashamed because I know that I am supposed to be an example, a witness to Christ Jesus and here I was tipsy. -____- So I can only imagine what it is like for those who do not know God personally and fear that they cannot come to him with their mess, sins and dirt etc. I cringe at the fact that some people really have no idea that although they have sinned God STILL loves them and WANTS them. In fact, that is why he sent his only son Jesus Christ, so that we may have the way to him,
even especially when we screw up.
Now, I am sure I am not the first or the only person to deal with the balance or figuring out of how to have fun being young and single while living for God. How do I incorporate the sassy, quirky and unique characteristics God created me with in ways that glorify him and still kick it with da homies? This trip although fun and beautiful, frankly very much needed was eye opening spiritually for me. God is my father any and everywhere but AM I HIS DAUGHTER ANY AND EVERYWHERE TOO??? Did I leave the USA and forget who I am…. WHO’S I AM??
While I was there in Mexico, I received a call I’d really rather had not. My nephewSon (yes, that’s a thing. I should really coin this phrase) Jason was rushed to the hospital. At first they could not tell what was wrong with him and there I was thousands of miles away. As I kept getting updates, I began to feel so helpless, worried and guilty. SMACK! in the middle of all of those emotions and thoughts, my father’s words cam flooding in my heart. I almost couldn’t keep up. As I stood in the middle of the hotel room with tears flowing down my face, I literally felt the presence of God and his peace washing over me. It was absolutely surreal and humbling. Seeing as how God was showing me he was #Loyal to me even when I was not towards him. I stood there praying, crying out to him and remembering his Words of healing, peace, restoration, security, victory and forgiveness. I walked out of that room with a refreshed sense of power and courage. Like the prodigal son, I came into my right mind again. I was able to enjoy the rest of the wedding weekend and have fun with my friends without compromising my walk/standards with Christ and without fear for my nephew.
Now this is NOT to say you cannot drink at all. My bases is strictly from my PERSONAL relationship with God. What he deems as the blueprint for our relationship. Simply put drinking and lewd conversations among other things is on OUR list of “Chill baby girl, you’re not about that life no mo”.
(MAD RANDOM SIDE NOTE)
So did ya’ll know that black people can sun burn??!! My whole chest, arms and even face is all messed up. Peeling and Err’thang. I have been dowsing my self in aloe for the past few days. SMH! Learn something new all the time. And I’m Haitian … the sun vacations year round there… I don’t get it. Anyways…….
These were some of the stand out points of my trip. Let me know what you guys think? What are some of your dealings with God? Don’t be shy, SHARE!
Love Ya to Peace,