Well it seems I totally neglected to write my week 46 updated. The weeks are getting better. I do have a weird story to tell you. This morning, as I was getting ready to leave for work. I realized I did not have on my purity/promise ring. I immediately went into a panic. I searched all over my room and my purse. At one point, I actually started CRYING!! Where did that come from?? That was totally unexpected. Truthfully, I barely think about it. However, it wasn’t until I didn’t have it and didn’t know where it was did I feel the weight of its value. I thought… it’s the symbol of my commitment to God. That day in March when it was just me and God in the car and I poured out my heart to him and told him my “vows”. It was my small intimate wedding ceremony to with God. I was reminded of all that today when my ring was missing. I was elated when I found it at the bottom of my junkie purse. I could not have been happier!
Now of course I still struggle with being fully content. I’m continuing to pray and hand over those negative thoughts to God when they pop up. Its so frustrating truthfully, my spirit is ready and willing to just let it all go and follow Christ. However, this stubborn heart of mine is soooo in the way. I guess I am truly living out the scripture that says; “…the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” Matt 26:41 Letting God really heal my heart is much more work than I thought but I take comfort in know that it WILL be made whole again and that it will be stronger than ever because it was put together by God himself.
So that’s my quick update for the past week.
Love Ya to Peace,