Is it just me or are the weeks flying by. Week 49 already huh? Well this week was actually good guys. No depressed feeling, no daydreams of long lost love..lol. It was a good week.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my purpose. For a while now, I’ve felt this calling to talk to young girls about life, the Christian Life. I want to help them avoid some of the hurt and troubles that I went through. I want them to know that they are loved, like truly loved. I’m finally starting to see that all that pain and struggle has a point. Another girl might not be able to handle some of the situations that I have been through, so if I can talk to and help them avoid it, it could save them. I also, want to help them get to know Christ and develop their own relationship with him. After all, he is the key. The Way, The Truth & The Light. But, I’m shy and fearful of rejection and of failing. Those three things are keeping me from stepping out on faith and moving forward with what God is calling me to do. So much so, that I know that I need to spend more dedicated time reading and meditating on Scripture but I don’t. I’ve been procrastinating on Netflix-ing. Seriously, someone needs to research the power and effect of Netflix. LeStruggle is REAL!
Its like I know what I want to do and it’s in line with what I need to do but I just can’t seem to get myself to do it. Have you guys ever experience this before? If so, how did you get over it? I want to please God with all that I do. I want so much for him to be please with me and to avoid those words in Matthew 7:21-23.
21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
Upon review and writing out this post, I realized that not following through on this calling would be disobeying God. And we all know that is a big NO NO! This fear of rejection and failing is not from God. 2 Timothy 1:7
7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
This shyness should not stop me from doing his work. Its an honor really for God to even want to use us. He even gave us Christ to help us fulfill what he is asking. Philippians 4:13
13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.
Again, I know what I have to do. Please help me pray for courage and wisdom (James 1:5). And stay tuned to see what God leads me to do. I really dislike surprises but I’ll roll with God always..lol
Love ya to Peace,