I feel like I need to let out a scream! All the frustration and rage and fear and sadness. It has to end. The tears have got to stop. The worry has got to cease. Anxiety has to go. God, with all due respect and honor, I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW!!
Father, your word tells me to resist the devil and he shall flee. I am resisting. My heart is torn beyond repair. Death is knocking on the post of my family. Fear and Anxiety run around me. God, I need you right now. I am holding. Holding on, planting- DIGGING my feet into your foundation. Shielding with faith that you will hear mu cries and my pleas. Oh Father, please do not remain silent much longer. Father, please. I am holding the line. I am being pushed and shoved. My family is being rattled. God, I need you. Do not turn a deaf ear to me, father. Alpha and Omega you are. One single word from you is sufficient to aide us. King of Kings, Lord of Lords.. nothing and no one can compare to you. none ever can challenge you. Father, why do you leave me when I need you the most. I seek you but cannot find you. I miss your presence Father. Such peace, love, comfort where you are. Why do you hide from me? What wrong have I done? What sin have I caused against you? Tell me and I will repent of it specifically. I know that I am sinful because I am man for that I pray mercy and grace forever. But If I have added to that, Father. Please tell me so that I can correct it. I want to be pure and holy as you are holy. I need to dwell in your presence God. I’m holding. I’m pushing against the attacks over my family, my life, my future. I’m holding the line. Honestly, I’m beginning to buckle under the pressure. YOU ARE MY HOPE, GOD. YOU ARE MY LIFE. WITHOUT YOU WHAT REALLY IS THERE? YOU SAID IF I CALLED OUT TO YOU , YOU WOULD HEAR ME AND RESCUE ME. GOD, HEAR ME NOW- HELP! HELP ME FATHER. I AM SO BROKEN THAT THERE AREN’T ANY TEARS LEFT IN ME TO POUR OUT. I LOOK AROUND AND FIND NO RESTING PLACE. YOU ARE MY RESTING PLACE, BUT I CANNOT FIND YOU. FATHER, DO YOU REMEMBER ME? DO YOU REMEMBER MY VOICE? DO YOU STILL LOVE ME, GOD? I MEAN NO DISRESPECT OR UNGRATEFULNESS. I JUST NEED TO BE WHERE YOU ARE. I DON’T FEEL YOU NEAR. I Am Holding! I will hold until you come for me. I will shout your name and sing of your glory until you come for me. I will push for you until you come for me. Grit, groan, scream, shout, cry, bend until you come for me. Mighty you are, Great you. Awesome and Majestic you are. Supreme you are. The one and only sovereign God you are. Father, hear me. We need you right now. Amen.
1 John 4:4
You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
You will tread upon the lion and cobra, The young lion and the serpent you will trample down. 14“Because he has loved Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him securely on high, because he has known My name. 15“He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him.